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The Perverse

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[An extract from the short story The Imp of the Perverse by Edgar Allan Poe]

“We have a task before us which must be speedily performed. We know that it will be ruinous to make delay. The most important crisis of our life calls, trumpet-tongued, for immediate energy and action. … It must, it shall be undertaken to-day, and yet we put it off until to-morrow, and why? There is no answer, except that we feel perverse, using the word with no comprehension of the principle. … [Then] The clock strikes, and is the knell of our welfare. At the same time, it is the chanticleer-note to the ghost that has so long overawed us. It flies—disappears—we are free. The old energy returns. We will labor now. Alas, it is too late!”

Mono no aware


If there were no cherry blossoms in this world
How much more tranquil our hearts would be in spring.

- Japanese Waka poem. Circa 9th century AD

It is easy to look upon the world as being full of ugliness. The banal is trivial. Ugly is easy. Beauty takes effort. Beauty doesn’t last.

In present-day Japan, the blossom forecast (桜前線 sakurazensen - cherry blossom front) is announced each year by the weather bureau for the benefit of the millions of its citizens who continue to practise an ancient custom of flower viewing called Hanami (花見) .

The Japanese aesthetic is centred on the acceptance of transience. The impermanence of all things is not necessarily something to be lamented. The sakura blossom for at most two weeks each year and are very sensitive to even the slightest bit of rain. The sight of a bountiful blossom is serene and somewhat tinged with melancholy, since throughout the ages the sakura have been seen as a metaphor for life itself, especially the life of a warrior. Luminous and beautiful. Fleeting and ephemeral.

In order to keep going through life, day in and day out, a number of us resort to building up certain notions – idealisations in our heads which are variously appreciated or mocked by those we choose to divulge them to. One is oft unwilling to test their verisimilitude.

I believe this is justified at times. What many call ‘reality’ is often less prosaic. And we need all the beauty we can get – ‘real’, ‘imagined’, or somewhere in between. Believing that there is such a thing as beauty can be quite a task. Maybe one shouldn’t sneer at the romantics among us. The romantic within each of us.

“It is after all so easy to shatter a story. To break a chain of thought. To ruin a fragment of a dream being carried around carefully like a piece of porcelain. To let it be, to travel with it, as Velutha did, is much the harder thing to do.”

Arundhati Roy: The God of Small Things

And what if the transitory nature of all that is beautiful is less of an impediment than it would seem? Perhaps, if one treasures the memory…

…it will never
Pass into nothingness; but still will keep
A bower quiet for us, and a sleep
Full of sweet dreams, and health, and quiet breathing.”

“I have lived on the lip of insanity, wanting to know reasons, knocking on a door.

It opens. I’ve been knocking from the inside.”

– Rumi

Art, War, Shampoo and Hummus – Part II

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[continued from Part I]

But first we made a trip to a Khadi store where we spent a while looking at racks that held assorted herbal shampoos, hair gels, cleansing creams and bars of soap – all imbued with varied colours and fragrant odours. C picked up the stuff she needed after pointing out several of these to me. I too found one that interested me and bought it, making me the proud owner of a “mauri henna herbal sat” ayurvedic shampoo. :-P

I had heard about how Paharganj felt like it might have been built to order for backpacking foreign tourists. When we walked into the Main Market we saw stores selling clothing, hand-crafted jewellery, dingy artifacts, and home decorations, and shops that stocked scented oils and displayed their wares in colourful glass bottles arranged into a pyramid. The lilting sounds of the veena were emanating from some of these places. We also witnessed young boys running after fair-skinned couples asking them if they’d like to “get a room” at the tourist-friendly price range establishment they worked for. Names that were heard included ‘Hotel Cottage Yes Please’ and ‘Hotel Relaxxx’. Paharganj has numerous such places, not all of which are shady, where travellers on a budget can put up.

We walked through the lanes looking left and right at the the sights the place had to offer, all the while avoiding careening rickshaws and people running around carrying loads on their heads. Since I made it known that some of the baubles on display here and there interested me too, we went ahead and compared notes on bracelets and bead wristbands. We stopped to look at hairclips with a snake design, miniature decorative swords and shields, an owl pendant… I saw second-hand books, henna artists, morpankh fans made from peacock feathers, whips, exotic teas, and ittar too.

junk jewelry

A selection of 'junk' jewelry and souvenirs

C told me there were also a few good eateries in the area. Next stop was Sam’s Cafe.

When you go to Sam’s, you go for the rooftop seating area. That is where you want to be.

We had walked up three flights of stairs chatting all the way and then we chose a table without a break in the conversation. It was only when we took our first breather a few minutes after settling into our chairs that we noticed a gleaming trumpet hung on the wall. This was the first thing that came into our heads:

HIMYM Blue French Horn

The blue French horn

We didn’t take a photo then, but in actuality, the cafe looked more like this.

Sam's Cafe

Sam's Cafe

Like others in the region, this joint offers a smattering of Middle Eastern food items apart from the usual. I observed some of the waiters around me communicating with tourists in spurts of stylishly accented English, and a couple of words here or there of what sounded like French and German they must have picked up over the years.

After a little brain-picking we decided to try a bit of pita bread served with hummus first. I am unable to remember clearly what the clinching factor was. Perhaps the fact that I was reminded of this guy‘s antics did ( ‘I regret to say’? :P ) contribute to an extent.

hummus with pita bread

Hummus and pita bread

Hummus is a dip made with cooked and mashed chickpeas (chana) mixed with olive oil, lemon juice, salt and garlic. It is a cornerstone of Israeli cuisine, and its consumption in Israel has been compared to that of “peanut butter in America or Nutella in Europe”. Apparently pita with hummus is a common lunch for schoolchildren. This much I did know, more or less, even before I had watched the admittedly very lowbrow Adam Sandler starrer I referred to above. But I found the way it pokes fun at the popularity of hummus in the Middle East quite amusing - characters eat it using random household items to scoop it up, and use it to brush their teeth, douse the flames of a fire, and even as a hair care product.

I came to learn later that modern Israeli cuisine is to an extent based around certain agricultural products listed as the Seven Species – special products of the Land of the Israelites - in the Tanakh (Hebrew Bible). These are  - olives, figs, dates, pomegranates, wheat, barley and grapes. I might have added chickpeas to that list. Interaction with and immigration from North Africa and the interiors of Europe have also have significant influence.

Upon our selected spread’s arrival, I was informed by my considerably more experienced friend that the hummus needed more olive oil. This deficiency was promptly corrected, but I was told there was still something not quite right with what we got. Nonetheless I liked what I ate. And my taste buds were further regaled by the succulent chocolate pancake that we had as dessert. We stayed for a while, dispensing with considerations of time to soak in the surroundings and indulge in conversation.

Altogether it was an evening I really enjoyed. I hope it wasn’t too bad for C either.

It’s Just a Box of Rain

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Maybe you’re tired and broken
Your tongue is twisted
with words half spoken
and thoughts unclear
What do you want me to do,
to do for you, to see you through?

I happen to particularly like a couple of TV series that were cancelled after their first season and then mourned by a not-very-small community of fans for quite a while, some to this day. Firefly is one. I thought that The Class wasn’t too bad either. This post owes its origin to the finale of season one of Freaks & Geeks. Someone who views this series today would encounter in the very opening credits (if not earlier) the triple whammy of Judd Apatow’s later favourites – Jason Segel, James Franco and Seth Rogen. The other actors who were part of the ensemble cast have not all achieved similar levels of success in their later careers, but I’d say it was not for lack of talent.

The show is set at the dawn of the 80s and centers on a teenage girl in high school and her younger brother. Half of the show is this girl Lindsay’s transition – and the conflicts that ensue – from being a ‘proper’ girl,  academically proficient student and star mathlete to someone who hangs with troubled slackers, after a major event just before the show starts makes her reconsider the way she has been leading her life. In the final episode, Lindsay is told that she has been selected to attend an “academic summit” in the summer where, says her suitably ecstatic and near-envious English teacher, “for two glorious weeks” she would be “reading, debating and matching wits with the best and brightest in Michigan” and “ranked daily”. Lindsay is not very enthusiastic about this and complains to her school’s guidance counsellor Mr Rosso “How can I be in the top 1%? I don’t study that much!”. Mr Rosso responds by loaning her his copy of the ‘American Beauty’ album by the Grateful Dead, which he used to put on back when he was in college and he got stressed. Lindsay in the counsellor's office

Lindsay encounters two ‘deadheads’ later on in the cafeteria, who tell her how they wish they had never heard the album so they could hear it again for the first time. When she does play the record in her room, the country melodies do indeed succeed in effecting a change in how she feels about things.

[When I posted a short video with the relevant portions of the episode on YouTube, the audio was immediately muted. Gaah. I am posting a link to my Dropbox instead, so you can download it (4 min, 29 mb).]

Lindsay Weir and the Grateful Dead

‘Box of Rain’ is the song that is heard playing on the record player, and I really liked it. The ‘box of rain’ is this world we live in. Bear that in mind if/when you listen to the song, it will make a lot more sense. It is melancholy in parts – full of metaphors for being disillusioned, and living out your life as a broken shell of yourself. But then it is also reassuring:

It’s just a box of rain
I don’t know who put it there
Believe it if you need it
or leave it if you dare
But it’s just a box of rain
or a ribbon for your hair
Such a long long time to be gone
and a short time to be there 

This is what it seems to say: This world’s just a box of rain – wind and water. Take it seriously if you want to. If you don’t want to and you feel you can handle that idea, then that’s okay too. There’s a lot of sadness in the world if you go looking for it, no matter who you are. And you’re around only for a short time. Try to let go of your worries and be happy.

Naive? Perhaps. Cliched? Sure. Not worthy of consideration? Wouldn’t say that.

I am listening to more of the Grateful Dead now.

Art, War, Shampoo and Hummus – Part I

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A few weeks back, I got a message from my friend C at noontime. Asking me if I’d like to come along to an exhibition of Francisco Goya’s paintings at Instituto Cervantes in CP later that day. Which was nice.

I have little knowledge of art – the little that I do is confined to what I have gleaned from spending time in quizzes and watching movies. And I had never been to an art exhibit before. Which was all good – instead of having to go gawk at one of those alone someday I was getting to go with someone who had been there and done that.

The hitch was that I was at that moment running from pillar to post trying to get all the required signatures on a no dues form on the IIT campus. Of course nobody was where one would expect them to be. Of course everyone was taking 4 hour lunch breaks everyday. And of course it was the last date to send in the documents. I would be free in time to reach the place, but only barely.

More fun facts – just about an hour ago, I had finished emptying out the contents of my hostel room and sending everything home in a lorry including all my clothes except the ones I had on. During the last year, my room had come to hold within it an insane amount of stuff. I had been up all night packing. As for the clothes, with all the cleaning that I knew I would need to do, I had chosen to wear the set that I wouldn’t mind getting dirty and sweaty. And it wasn’t like any of the very few denizens of the hostel in the middle of the summer vacation could help me wangle better sartorial choices. Shouldn’t I look – er – dignified when going for this sort of thing? :-|

The aforementioned friend has been a positive influence on me for some time now – helping me get a glimpse at everything I have been missing in the last few years. Our correspondence and interactions leave a smile on my face every time, and I look forward to them. I decided to clean up (as much as was possible under the circumstances), man up and go along.

Goya was a court painter to the Spanish crown from 1789-1824. He was a bridge between two eras of artists and an important influence to many that came after him including Picasso.

A very brief perusal of his oeuvre online on my way to the venue hinted at a man who was not inclined to glorify or glamourise the subject of his art. Subversive notes would abound even when he was commissioned by royals to paint them and their consorts.

But this exhibit turned out to be from a somewhat different period of Goya’s works. In the last decade of his career, he was a witness to the Peninsular Wars between Spain and France under Bonaparte. He was old, in poor health and almost deaf when he started work on a series of prints that depicted the horrors of war.

Lo mismo (The same)

Lo mismo (The same)

Goya etched a soldier about to be delivered the killing blow, civilians being assaulted, tortured and killed, piles of rotting bodies beside which mourners stood transfixed, and mutilated torsos and limbs of victims mounted on trees.

And it cannot be helped (y no hai remedio)

Y no hai remedio (And it cannot be helped)

Grande hazaña! Con muertos!

Grande hazaña! Con muertos! (A heroic feat! With dead men!)

In this series - The Disasters of War - there is no melodrama or extra-artful presentation to distance the viewer from the brutality of the subject. No redeeming notions of a purpose to the killing, of ultimate justice, or the ‘glorious’ life of a soldier are alluded to. No excuses are made for the often grotesque scenes. Consequently, the most disturbing aspects of each work hit you head-on.

The result is a sequence of images that leave no viewer unscathed. As hard to look at as they are, I found these works invaluable as a passionate and effective anti-war message.

C was a little dismayed at the darkness of it all. We moved on to an exhibit of photos of Machhu Picchu and looked at those for a while.

The Machu Picchu

When we finally walked out of the place, C asked me if I had time on my hands, and when I said I did suggested that we go explore Paharganj. At this point I should add that I have lived in Delhi for 10 years now, but I haven’t ‘been around’ enough. Sure I could start coming up with reasons for why things are the way they are. But I’d rather acknowledge that I might not have made the best use of my time, assure the reader of my intentions to correct the same, and move on.

Yes I’d like that, I said.

[Read Part II here]

Sad Keanu

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I like this guy. Neo, Constantine, Wyld Stallyns !!!

I wonder why he’s so sad.

Makes for a great meme though :-p

Lookey this – http://www.buzzfeed.com/memecore/10-best-sad-keanu-images-1ea9

That’s Angst For You

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A Short Pause

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(originally published at the Six Sentences Ning blog http://sixsentences.ning.com/profiles/blogs/a-short-pause?xg_source=activity)

The wind rested its weary haunches on a steady branch of the oak. The azure waters of the lake came to rest. In that moment, it seemed that Nature was lost in a mellifluous dream. That was it. The eyelids drew to a close. The dying man had looked upon the world one last time and smiled.

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If I write something today that I don’t quite agree with tomorrow, then so be it. I contain multitudes.

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